Updated: Jul 29, 2020
2020 has been about adjusting and learning to navigate through uncertainty. As a woman in such a monumental year, I found myself shifting focus. I daringly stood up for my beliefs and supported what is right. I remembered my self-worth. I empowered others to do the same. I remained steadfast in my relationship with God, allowing my Faith to keep hope alive.
For whatever reason, 2020 had many people more hopeful than they had ever been. I was included in that group of 2020 hopefuls. “2020 Vision” was my slogan, and I had even put it as the backdrop on my social media page. It was to be the year of true love, new feats, and crazy adventures. It was the year of clarity.
Then comes March. My birth month and beginning of what normally is a whirlwind of events until around August. By this time, the world had suffered the loss of Kobe, I was no longer in a relationship, and news of COVID-19 was spreading like wildfire. Not to mention, there were actual wildfires. Things felt off, but I continued as normal with birthday plans. I had purchased tickets for this jazz wine train ride and had planned Sunday brunch with friends. Next thing I knew, the train ride was cancelled, and restaurants closed. I ended up just having a small get-together at home. During the gathering, news came the city would literally be shutting down the following day.
What I thought would be a few weeks turned into months. EVERYTHING CHANGED. I was working from home. I was not singing with my praise team because the church buildings were closed. I was not kickboxing because the gyms were closed. I was frustrated with not being able to find disinfectant sprays and wipes. I was Zoomed out. I was disheartened by the unjust killings of our Black men and women. It was one thing after the next, and I sometimes felt overwhelmed. During this time of solitude, I had no choice but to focus on self. I picked up new hobbies. I reconnected with old friends and family. I found new ways to do old things. I spoke out on the injustices. I re-evaluated what and who were important in my life. I rerouted.
This year has been pivotal. 2020 reminded me God’s plan is untouchable. Life throws curve-balls and change-ups, but through it all, we become more resilient.