Updated: Jul 29, 2020
I think I speak for everyone when I say that 2020 has not been what any of us expected. This first six months have been overwhelming to say the least. We are dealing with a pandemic, protest for racial injustice and it is an election year. So much has happened this 1st half of the year, I am a little nervous to see what the second half of this year is going to bring.
Even though the world seems to be in chaos when you look at the news and social media. For me 2020 has brought clarity, focus and stability to life, among all the chaos. Something I desperately needed and would not have gotten if the world had not imploded. I feel like for the past few years I have been flying by the seat of my pants and living like whatever happens, happens. If I’m keeping it 100% with you guys, I started the year with an empty savings account, living paycheck to check and not putting myself first. If I had lost my job, I would not have been able to pay my rent or car note. Hell, I would have been fucked.
Thank you, Rona, for stomping in and commanding everyone’s attention. For coming in pressing pause and forcing us to focus on the things that we should have been focused on all the time. During quarantine I had to stop my usual routine of running from here to there, focusing on everything else, so I could avoid dealing with things I needed to take care of. When you are forced to stop and spend time with yourself, you have two choices. You can either squander that time or use it to fix everything that is broken. I chose the latter and I am so happy I did.
I now feel stable. I feel focused. I feel content. I am getting my peace back. Finally, at 45 I am getting my shit together. That is what 2020 has been for me. Let me clarify, I am not happy this pandemic is happening. However, I do believe that things happen for reason and the fact that this pandemic is happening to the whole world at the same time. I think instead of working on us individually, God is working on us at one time. Don’t come out of quarantine the same way you went in.