"Damn, You Look Good On The OUTSIDE!!!!"




For years I couldn’t understand why my relationships all ended horribly… Couldn’t figure out why I was unhappy, negative, overweight, and forever searching for something I would never find, PEACE… I couldn’t quite put my finger on why all my relationships, be it platonic or intimate were with people who were insecure, constantly the victim, and people who were internally murdering themselves with words… At the time, I didn’t know the people who were in my circle were only a reflection of me, YEAH ME…


It’s amazing how we can go years and never really know ourselves… We know bits and pieces of who we are, but we never really know the core and truth of who we are… Because the world has become such a shallow place, many of us only know the surface… We only know the above ground version of ourselves because at one point in time, we buried the truth… We buried or at least thought we buried the brokenness, insecurities, depression, and low self-esteem. We learned to mask our shortcomings with the outward appearance of happiness and success, but no matter how hard we try, who we attracted manifest who we really were…


I can remember the circles of people I used to hang with… They were toxic, malicious and triflin people, sadly to say, I fit right in… At the time, I didn’t realize how we tore and ripped apart people… I didn’t realize how we found laughter in gossip, I couldn’t see it because I found comfort in it…. I can remember the intimate relationships I had. How I constantly found myself in relationships filled with insecurities, lies, and cheating… I constantly attracted these things because deep within me were insecurities, the need to lie, and the desires to feel wanted by more than one. I attracted me, but at the time I didn’t realize it. I didn’t realize I was befriending and dating myself… Never thought the hurt I was receiving, was the very hurt I was giving. I never saw I was in love with the very things I hate today…


What I know for sure is… Who we are friends with and who we date reflects who we are… If you want to know how the world sees you, take a look at your friends… If you want to know the vibes you’re sending out, take a look at your mate… Our relationships are the sketches of what’s inside of us, so if you want to know the truth about you, take a look at who’s around you…


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