"Sadly In Love"...

Updated: Aug 18





Throughout my life I’ve experienced love in various ways… I’ve been “Crazy In Love”; “Happy In Love”; “Comfortable In Love”, but I’ve never been “Sadly In Love”. To be honest, this is the love I’m looking for… Let me break it down for you…


Crazy In Love” is the love in which toxic behaviors were at the forefront… Blinded by my emotions, I allowed so many things to happen I later regretted. This was the time when my privacy was violated; insecurities from both parties were at an all-time high, and times when I vowed each year “I can’t do this anymore”, yet I found myself going back and drinking the poison.


Happy In Love” is the love in which I found myself daily on an emotional roller coaster. Depending on what was happening, determined my happiness. I can remember being happy about 50% of the time, while the other 50% I was either numb; didn’t give a fuck, or looking for love in other places…


Comfortable in Love” is the love in which I settled. These were the times I found myself in a relationship I didn’t deserve. I was afraid of being alone; desperately wanted what everyone else had, so I convinced myself what I had was better than nothing at all. I became comfortable in the appearance of a good relationship. Comfortable with having someone to chill with on the weekends. Comfortable in not having to get out there and test the waters… I found comfort in the relationship, but was restless in all other areas of my life…


So you’re wondering what this “Sadly In Love” thing is all about, huh? Well I want to find the kind of love that makes you sad so many people won’t ever experience it. You know the love where you can fully be yourself… Strip down all the facades… Take off all the makeup; body shapers; weaves… The love where even in your ugliest moments (emotional, spiritual, physical), you’re still the most beautiful person in the world. I want the love where I don’t have to ask you to show up because you’ve already beat me there… The love where we get older over time, yet it is as fresh and young as the day we both discovered it. I want the love you can only receive when you are truly free to give… The love that reminds us life is too short to be angry at each other for any period of time. The love that truly forgives, heals and not blind me to the other person faults, but opens my eyes to my own...


What I know for sure is… I want to love someone, someone to love me… I want the love only few have experienced and so many are looking for. I want to be “Sadly In Love”…




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